Tuesday, October 27, 2015

Overwhelmed

I'm really trying to stay here and do something. My heart is sore though. Or maybe it's my mind which often I seem to have lost and in most probability I've blown away. I used to always have such belief in my capabilities even when It felt as if if was losing my mind. Anyway, I'm urgently, indeed, bravely & valiantly persisting on bringing my brain back to life.

It's scary because I feel that my memory's gotten worse because it didn't used to be this dismal- at least I don't think. My brain doesn't even knows.

I freak out about anything health-wise & about how my brain is doing, processing, progressing. Sometimes I've thought I've got early on-set Alzheimers. I easily panic. 

This destroys any positivity I could muster. TBI which means Traumatic Brain Injury, survivors, I've been told by my .esteemed, and rightly so, doctorate counselors, that almost anything is mostly banished from the sunshine of positive  thoughts and feelings. For some desperate reason, which I'd love to know, our brains always swing to the cradle of negative assumptions, thought and feelings. And so our flypaper ordeal mushrooms and steals our precious time & tenuous happiness. Our hard won stability. Instead I become a jungle, a morass,of doomed possibilities, unrealistic (which is hard to fathom) and unreasonable ideas which will never amount to anything except digging my hole deeper & my depression casually coasting through my neurons. And upsetting me and my schedule and routine which is quintessential for me to maintain. I force myself to eat to nourish my body and brain but it's definitely a mission.

The only way out for me is to implement the strategy Push Aside. So I ardently repeat to myself " Push Aside", push aside, push aside & it actually woks. At first this is impossible to do. This is when I endeavour to wipe the negative slate clean, to push it aside.I have to say push aside, push aside out loud many times to myself, for my fragile yet determined brain to relax and find some sort of solace amongst this repetitive negativity engulfing my soul. Extraordinary it actually works. What an absolute relief.

I attractive and fit yet my brain always throws a spanner in the works, whatever it is. It really is quite trying. I find life difficult as surely everyone does. I so often want to give up but if I was sick all I'd want is to live.

I've decided to write daily in my blog

Back here again

Back on the blog

So I'm here again. Fear or courage?! I choose courage. So I'm here again.

It's been a while- in fact a year and a half, since I've written on my blog. I didn't even know I still had it because I'd tried to get on to it and it didn't seem to have been working.

Just got this pink warning telling me it's not able to publish my blog so I'm going to post this now to check it out.

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Coming back again..

I've been loathe to post anything more on this blog cos I write a whole lot of things down but then it doesn't publish. 

This is most disheartening for me as I've spent so much time researching and recording my information and writing it out too and then it just goes into draft- doesn't publish. Or disappears.

Am just testing if this post will publish or not, then I will post relevant TBI info again.


Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Neurogenesis

All this information I got from Wikipedia. Please see your medical doctor and to not only rely on these notes.

Neurogenesis

Neurogenesis (birth of neurons) is the process by which neurons are generated from neural stem cells and progenitor cells. Most active during pre-natal development , neurogenesis is responsible for populating the growing brain with neurons. In fact, newborn neurons are more excitable than older neurons due to a different expression if of GABA receptors.
GABA (y-Aminobutyricacid) is th chief inhibitory neurotransmitter in the mammalian central nervous center (system?). It plays a role in regulating neuronal excitability throughout the nervous system. In humans, GABA is also directly responsible for the regulation of muscle tone.

Neural Stem Cells

Neuro stem cells are self-renewing, multi potent cells that generate the phenotypes (the composite of an organisms  observable characteristics or traits) of the nervous system. Stem cells are undifferentiated biological cells that differentiate into specialised cells and can divide to produce more stem cells. (Adult stem cells are found in various tissues. In adult organisms, stem cells and progenitor / biological cells like a stem cell) act as a repair system for the body, replenishing adult tissues.


Neurogenesis

All this information I got / found from / in Wikipedia. Please see a medical doctor besides reading this.

Neurogenesis

Neurogenesis (the birth of neurons) is the process by which neurons are generated from neural stem cells and progenitor cells. They are most active during pre-natal development, neurogenesis is responsible for the populating the growing brain with neurons. In fact, newborn neurons are more excitable than older neurons due to a different expression of GABA receptors.
GABA (y-Aminobutyricacid) is the chief inhibitory neurotransmitter in the  mammalian central nervous center. It plays a role in regulating neuronal excitability throughout the nervous system. GABA is also directly responsible for the muscle tone.
For those of us who are afflicted by TBI's (Traumatic Brain Injury) neurogenesis holds out great potential and hope! There is also neuroplasticity which, I suppose, in connection with neurogenesis may